My diary is aired, performed and published today for the thirtieth time. Wow! This is the very event that will gather us tomorrow to celebrate this along the way.

An interesting connection is being fixed between the people which are known and unknown to me: they are responding by approaching to me, discussing, they are calling (more often), writing to my bleyan@mskh.am address, to my FB page. Let me treat three of them fulfilling my promise of answering the responds in the diary.

No matter how much I’m (sometimes or often) accused of sharpness and intolerableness I don’t know anybody more tolerant, more all-absorbing than me. Show me if you know. It’s so difficult when the actual circumstance and the drawing of conclusions (speaking one’s mind freely, having one’s own opinion) meet each other in the same speech, in the same place, in the same case denying each other. A fact is an actual circumstance by being corrected, accepted or denied. Let you my friend agree with this and express your opinion freely, I will listen to you with respect. Better to see once than to hear for so many times, it’s how people say, yes? The action of seeing is a fact, a registration of the actual circumstance and the act of listening is an opinion. Often we used to think that a fact is very far from an opinion. I am going to bring more and more homely sayings and aphorisms in my diary which are wise and have strongly cultivated language forms, but unfortunately we live rejecting them, as though we have never participated in their creation.

1. From the 14^th of May of 1999 to the 13^th of July 2001 I was in Yerevan retreat number 1, on the way to retreat-courtroom followed by a special convoy or in the courtroom all the time. This is a fact. So I was free (though I have never act and think more freely left with myself alone during my arrest) from the 13^th of July. Shoushan Bleyan became 6 years old that day, I took her hand as her father and accompanied her to the New school of the educational complex ”Mkhitar Sebastatsy”, the class of Armine Yeghikyan on the 1^st of September. Tadevos Markossyan,

Shoushan’s classmate, a student of the faculty of physics will testify this, won’t you Tadevos?

2. I don’t have an аrchive : in “Tigran Hayrapetyan” library of Educational Complex was formed my fund, hey, thanks to Mary Gabanyan: I should see in which state it is. My archive are my publications printed and electronic. Those which are electronic are the materials of my blog and they will be more available for those who are interested day by day. We have started to classify it.

More difficult is to follow the “scents” of my activities before the internet. Here also the blog is to be a customer and an organizer: do, keep on following my blog. All the episodes of my political-public-educational activity, known and unknown pages, what is evident is a fact, all the interested people will have those at their disposal: I appreciate your time and I’m able to provide a service that will demand a minimum expense of time through my blog.

I often get unexpected calls from strangers, I’ve always been available for everybody in any position. For example yesterday a dear friend or as it’s used to say a gentleman who was very gentle in presenting himself was interested why and how I didn’t continued my political activity getting the freedom. He said exactly like this: “instead of you”. Though this includes the period of 2001-2006 years, not very distant past it can’t be done without archive corrections. So good in one of my drawers among the publication-booklet-collections connected with my name there is an informational leaflet with the title “Owing only you and responsible only to you’’ which is very neat-readable-tight, with great taste and humble. I like it even now. I turned it upside down, read it and I don’t think I have become smarter since then.

So “I was speaking when everybody fell silent, when speaking was dangerous. To say means to do: I’ve supported everyone’s right to live calm, free and confident”. In 2003 during the elections of the National Assembly of RA I contested a borough by the right of civil initiation. I was resolute, I wanted to work as a member of the parliament. It didn’t work out, I wasn’t elected, may be the elections were rigged and I wasn’t allowed to, this is a matter of appreciation, anyway it didn’t work out. Before I had founded “A Roof”ens legis trying to continue-enlarge the legal adviser’s activity I was doing in the retreat. I’m talking about work, about paid work of course, I haven’t got any business, that is why this fee is my profit.

I made my best efforts in 2001-2003 to create an Armenian legal structure operating for the solvent citizens of Armenia, with its reign, citizens, enterprisers, funds, people making real extracurricular activities. A civil society organization without these stated above activities being an activity of 1,2 or 3, being just a means of living always depending on grants independent of me, this is not mine, I can’t afford this. Then I clarified my relationship with the party “New Way”, I was the founder and the president of it. A person-party or a person-party machine when the electing machine doesn’t operate, when the party isn’t getting enough assets. Again it’s not for me. I dissolved the party remaining myself the “New Way”. You may read it.

3. I promised a journalist to answer his question about the “last bell” in my diary. In 2005 the executive director of the educational complex Rayisa Galstyan got fixed up in the newly formed state administration of education where she works till now as a deputy director. My education complex offered me an employment contract. Never I had an evident or secret protection (through an assistant, friend, driver, etc.). I hate when the driver is waiting for me or a stranger in the waiting room, leaving alone about the person who has a fixed appointment with me. My house address, work address, my phone number, email are known and available to and for everybody. Whole time having worked as a deputy Mayor of Yerevan, a minister of illumination, first deputy minister of science and education, a member of the Supreme Soviet of RA, a prisoner (I stress it: a prisoner), a director of educational complex anyway, in the street, at the office or in public, in the hall, being in a departure I’m at work all the time, I’ve been signing papers, given solutions, making appointments. This is in my blood and I do it mechanically.

By the way for the facts and data brought in my diary only I am responsible, it’s on you to use it, just you have to leave it as it is. You may quote your instances from the diary and your opinion will certainly be taken into consideration.

Now let me continue my writing also for the others. The most difficult for me was the connection with Shoushanik during my arrest period of 1999-2001. My daughter was becoming 4 years old and these meetings of once a month (In fact the periodicity wasn’t that much) were knocking me out. I was totally finished after that. And my folks should explain her where they are taking her, and I should get with her in touch so naturally in that artificial surrounding. I’m getting excited even now, like yesterday, when Davit drinking water from the faucet in the balcony and looking at Shoushan’s photo called “To the stage” lifted up his head and said, “Pa, I’m praying for Shoushow”. I’m not sure about praying my dear Davit, but you’re the defender of Shoushan’s work in opera and life: wherever she has concerts, you should go, applaud to her, give her flowers, leaving alone that you have to promise me that you’ll organize the concerts.

See the armenian version.

Translated by Syuzan Hovhannisyan